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mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#amothersstory" title="Personal Stories">Tan's Story</a> <o:p></o:p></span></li> <li class=MsoNormal style='color:#F8C642;mso-margin-top-alt:auto;mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo3;tab-stops:list 36.0pt;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#amothersstory" title="Personal Stories">Christopher Paul Gilson~Mate</a> <o:p></o:p></span></li> <li class=MsoNormal style='mso-margin-top-alt:auto;mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo3;tab-stops:list 36.0pt;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt;color:#FFFF99'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#booth" title="Personal Stories">Darren Booth~Mother</a></span><span style='font-size:10.5pt'> <o:p></o:p></span></li> <li class=MsoNormal style='color:#F8C642;mso-margin-top-alt:auto;mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo3;tab-stops:list 36.0pt;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt;color:#FFFF99'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#gilson" title="Personal Stories">Christopher Paul Gilson ~Mother</a></span><span style='font-size:10.5pt'> <o:p></o:p></span></li> <li class=MsoNormal style='color:#F8C642;mso-margin-top-alt:auto;mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo3;tab-stops:list 36.0pt;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt;color:#FFFF99'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#finding_the_link_between_spiritual" title="Personal Stories">Finding The Link Between Spiritual Experience And Mental Illness</a></span><span style='font-size:10.5pt'> <o:p></o:p></span></li> </ul> <p class=style57 style='margin-left:36.0pt;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#F8C642'>&nbsp;<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=MsoNormal style='mso-margin-top-alt:auto;mso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; margin-left:72.0pt;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt;color:#F8C642'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></p> <p class=MsoNormal style='mso-margin-top-alt:auto;margin-bottom:12.0pt; margin-left:36.0pt;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-size:10.5pt;color:#F8C642'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></p> </td> </tr> </table> <table class=MsoNormalTable border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=0 align=right width="75%" style='width:75.0%;mso-cellspacing:0cm;mso-table-lspace:2.25pt; mso-table-rspace:2.25pt;mso-table-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-table-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-table-left:right;mso-table-top:middle;mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt'> <tr style='mso-yfti-irow:0;mso-yfti-firstrow:yes'> <td style='padding:.75pt .75pt .75pt .75pt'> <p align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span class=style381>PERSONAL STORIES </span><o:p></o:p></p> <div align=center> <table class=MsoNormalTable border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=0 width=549 style='width:411.75pt;mso-cellspacing:0cm;mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt'> <tr style='mso-yfti-irow:0;mso-yfti-firstrow:yes;mso-yfti-lastrow:yes; height:42.75pt'> <td style='padding:.75pt .75pt .75pt .75pt;height:42.75pt'><nobr> <p class=MsoNormal align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right; mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><b><span style='font-family: Arial;color:#FFCC33'>The following stories are real and have been reproduced here by permission of the Authors. </span></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right; mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><b><span style='font-family: Arial;color:#FFCC33'>Names and any other connectable material have been </span></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame; mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical: paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right; mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><b><span style='font-family: Arial;color:#FFCC33'>removed or changed in order to protect the families and relatives of the deceased.</span></b><o:p></o:p></p> </td> </tr> </table> </div> <P></P> <p style='margin:0cm;margin-bottom:.0001pt;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='display:none;mso-hide:all'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></p> <table class=MsoNormalTable border=0 cellpadding=0 style='mso-cellspacing: 1.5pt;mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt'> <tr style='mso-yfti-irow:0;mso-yfti-firstrow:yes;mso-yfti-lastrow:yes; height:1638.35pt'> <td width=707 valign=top style='width:530.25pt;padding:.75pt .75pt .75pt .75pt; height:1638.35pt'> <p align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><a name=angry id=angry></a><b><span style='font-size:13.5pt;font-family:Arial;color:#FFCC33'>I Am So Angry</span></b></p> <p class=style48><b style='mso-bidi-font-weight:normal'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>M</span></b><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>y partner and I had been together over 25 years. He was 61 at time of death. On the evening of his death we had a huge fight as I just found out he was having an affair with another women. He desperately asked me to forgive him but I was so angry I just did not want to listen to what he had to say. Shortly after we went to bed he got up, took something out of his side chest of tables and went into the computer room. I waited a little as I calmed down by then and went to see what he was doing. The door of the computer room was slightly opened and I pushed it fully open. He was sitting on a chair with a shot gun between his legs with string attached from his toe to the trigger of the shotgun. Before I could say anything he pulled the trigger with his toe and shot himself in the head. His whole head and blood was splattered all over me and the room from top to bottom. I screamed and screamed and screamed running outside screaming for help. Nobody heard me. I had to ring the Police but my partner pulled the phone line out of the wall. I grabbed my mobile phone to call them and they came almost immediately. What I saw has absolutely traumatised me and I have terrible nightmares. <b style='mso-bidi-font-weight:normal'>The worst was I had to pay specialised cleaners to come and clean all the mess and to make it cheaper for myself I assisted them with the clean up. I had no choice financially.</b> I do blame myself which I know I shouldn t but I keep thinking IF ONLY we did not have that huge fight he would still be alive. My thoughts and emotions are running rampant of what I could have done, what I should have done, what I should have said and tormenting myself with the why s and the <span class=GramE>if s</span>. I am angry that nobody wants to help me. I am angry that nobody seems to care. I am angry at him for doing what he did. I am angry that I can t talk about what happened. I am so angry it seems to be consuming me. At least the White Wreath Association  Action Against Suicide has listened to my concerns and totally understands what I am going through. I have sent the White Wreath Association a photo of my partner and through them my partner will always be remembered on White Wreath Day-In Remembrance of All Victims of Suicide<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>DW<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48><span style='color:#FFFFCC'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></p> <p class=style48><b><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>Footnote<span class=GramE>:-</span></span></b><span style='color:#FFFFCC;mso-bidi-font-weight:bold'> We checked out this person s story regarding paying of cleanup and to our amazement the person did assist so cost of cleanup would be cheaper. We also discovered that the Government will compensate a family member up to $3,000 for cleanup if it is a murder/homicide and the tragedy happened in a home environment. However not so for a family member like the person in question who was also an innocent bystander and witnessed in front of them the most horrific suicide imaginable. The above is only a condensed version as the letter was much more detailed and explicit. How often have we explained the difference in understanding and compassion towards Mental Illness/Suicide compared to any other Death/<span class=GramE>Illness.</span> This is a prime example that comes directly from Government. We did contact the Attorney-General &amp; Minister for Justice Department to  Please Explain and as usual the cold attitude that they can t do anything is frightfully sickening. We have stated many times that collectively Government Politicians/Advisers can do and change anything they want to. I<span style='mso-spacerun:yes'>  </span><span class=SpellE>Fanita</span> Clark as Head of our Organisation receive horrific stories on a daily basis via phone, letters, emails etc but this is the worst I have ever come across that a person/human being be treated in this manner. In the meantime this person is so traumatised but has to suffer alone, in silence and cope the best way they possibly can. If this is possible. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48><span class=SpellE><span style='color:#FFFFCC;mso-bidi-font-weight: bold'>Fanita</span></span><span style='color:#FFFFCC;mso-bidi-font-weight: bold'> Clark<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48><span style='color:#FFFFCC;mso-bidi-font-weight:bold'>CEO<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#top" title="Personal Stories">Top</a></span><span style='font-family:Arial'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><a name=DESPERATE id=DESPERATE></a><b><span style='font-size:13.5pt;font-family:Arial;color:#FFCC33'>Desperate</span></b></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><strong><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'>M</span></strong><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>y name is A S and I am the Step-mother of a 28 yr old woman named J. I am also her Power of attorney (financial and health) and it seems, at the present moment her only support with her ongoing battle with a very serious mental illness. The only other support J receives is from The White Wreath Association and they have on many occassions been of great help, as sometimes without their help and support J or myself would not know how to seek the appropriate places to try and find help for her desperate situation. I had to spend four hours yesterday (Thursday) trying to get someone to J residence to check on her safety as she had expressed to me that she was having suicidal thoughts and feelings and that she feared what she might do. I was at work and had to make phone calls to four different agencies before an ambulance finally went to her home. She was taken out to the Acute Care Unit at <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:PlaceName w:st="on">Mackay</st1:PlaceName> <st1:PlaceName w:st="on">Base</st1:PlaceName> <st1:PlaceType w:st="on">Hospital</st1:PlaceType></st1:place> and admitted for the night. She saw a Doctor this morning (Friday) who discharged her and said that she was happy for J to go home and that they would supply extra phone support over the weekend and an appointment with the Doctor on Monday. J rang me to tell me she was being sent home and was in tears because she didn't want to be let out as she was still having suicidal thoughts and feared what would happen to her after being sent home. It is also going to be the weekend and there is even less support available if the situation gets out of hand as there is also a lot of stress put on the ambulance service and police over weekends in Mackay. I tried to speak to that Doctor but was told that she was in clinic, I told the receptionist that I held very grave fears for J well being and felt that it wasn't safe for J to go home but was given a message by the receptionist that the Doctor was still happy for J to go home and again said about the extra phone support over the weekend and an appointment on Monday with the Doctor. I then rang the Acute Care Unit at the <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:PlaceName w:st="on">Mackay</st1:PlaceName> <st1:PlaceName w:st="on">Base</st1:PlaceName> <st1:PlaceType w:st="on">Hospital</st1:PlaceType></st1:place> and spoke to another Doctor and voiced my opinion to her that I have grave fears for J safety with her being released from the unit. That I feel it a very real possibility that J could try to take her own life. This Doctor also told me that she was happy for J to go home, extra phone support, Doctors visit on Monday. All the phone calls in the world are going to do no good if she doesn't answer the phone because she is hanging from the ceiling or bleeding to death in the shower. When I rang the unit to tell J that I had tried all I could but she was still going home she was crying saying she didn't want to go.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>I had spoken to J's case manager, R, at Community Health, on Tuesday and voiced my concerns about J present state of mind and said that I felt that she should be in hospital but obviously no notice was taken of me. This was not the first occasion I spoke to B about J situation in the last couple of weeks. I have talked to her about my concerns for her state of mental health and said that she needed some help then as I felt it could escalate into something very serious. All Doctors, Nurses and any other staff involved in the care of Mentally Ill people should start to pay attention to what Family and friends have to say about those people fighting a very serious illness. We know them best. We spend all the time with them. We listen to their worries and despair and try to help as much as we can. We're involved in their day to day lives. But that seems to count for nothing. Our opinions are not listened to because we don't have a degree or letters in front of or behind our names and yet we know our Family better than anyone else.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>J is in desperate need of hospitalisation as I do have very grave fears for her safety and today have expressed that to two Doctors, a nurse at the Acute Care Unit and also a receptionist at Community Health. Something has to be done urgently to help this young woman fighting a very difficult mental illness.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>Please do whatever you have to to help this young woman as I don't want to, not only lose my Step-daughter but I don't want her to become &quot;just another statistic&quot; with the excuse that everything was done when in reality nowhere near enough was done. It is neglect on behalf of both the Doctors I've spoken to today that they don't take my concerns seriously but are happy to send a mentally unstable, suicidal young woman home. If anything happens to her from now on the blood will be on their and your hands.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>AS..<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><strong><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'>Footnote:- In the days surrounding this letter there were four suicides in Mackay. One we believe was admitted, discharged and later suicided</span></strong><strong><span style='font-family:Arial'><o:p></o:p></span></strong></p> <p><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#top" title="Personal Stories">Top</a></span><span style='font-family:Arial'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></p> <p align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><a name=Hope id=Hope></a><b><span style='font-size:13.5pt;font-family:Arial;color:#FFCC33'>Hope</span></b><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><strong><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'>W</span></strong><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>e are one of the fortunate and the unfortunate. Unfortunate, because we lost a dearly loved son through suicide at the age of 28; fortunate because we found the White Wreath Assoc. where members have all suffered loss through suicide and therefore are the only ones who truly appreciate the devastation that suicide wreaks.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>Having read all the articles and letters sent to the newsletter and having an affinity with each and every one in some part I will not add my particular experience. Instead I want to offer HOPE. Yes, HOPE. You will laugh again. When we first went to an organisation in Perth, WA called Compassionate Friends, there were all these survivors of suicide  laughing. I was angry  how dared they laugh when we are suffering so badly, don t they know. But of course they did know because they had all been through the despair we were suffering on that day.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>I can t tell you when you will join the world again. It took me years  too many years and I am sure this withdrawing from the world took its toll on other members of my family as well. But, as you would know, I just couldn t help it. I was one of the lucky ones with a husband who tried his utmost during the period of my depression. The chances are we are also dealing with other issues prior to the suicide of our loved one, difficult family members, work worries,  time of life , financial problems. It is like a volcano and the suicide sets all the other  rubbish off into a catalyst explosion. We are then faced with dealing with everything at once  no wonder it takes time to recover.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>But as I said there is HOPE. Time will not necessarily take away your pain. After 12 years we just yearn to have our son back with us. Of course, this is not going to happen. What follows is  Acceptance . We have to accept that Mark is not coming back. We remember his laugh, he loved company, he was an extrovert, and he would talk to us about anything and everything he was doing. He was married to a lovely girl who embraced us as her family. You ask, Why, and the answer is we don t know. We just get a phone call at 4.00 am to tell us our son has died, hit by a train  the rest as they say is history.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>We have joined the world again; we laugh again and have fun, go on holidays and outings, meet friends. Sometimes on outings we will say  Mark would like this or  Do you remember when Mark did that . We don t exclude him; he was part of us for 28 years and will never be forgotten. That is often a fear. That our loved son/daughter will be forgotten  they won t be. Don t give up HOPE that one-day you will feel better than you do right now. MW, <st1:City w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Brisbane</st1:place></st1:City> Qld<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt;mso-element-wrap: around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'><a href="http://www.whitewreath.com/id50.htm#top" title="Personal Stories">Top</a><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p align=center style='text-align:center;mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace: 2.25pt;mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph; mso-element-anchor-horizontal:column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top: middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><a name=FianceeStory id=FianceeStory></a><b><span style='font-size:13.5pt;font-family:Arial;color:#FFCC33'>Fiancee's Story</span></b><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><strong><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'>L</span></strong><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>osing some-one close to you to suicide is something only those who have experienced it first hand can really understand.? And yet, at a time when everyone is feeling such deep loss, harsh words and accusations are thrown with intent to hurt those who are already trying to comprehend the reality of what has just happened.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>E veryone seems to have their own personal views on what events lead to the suicide.? Blame towards others seems to be the easier alternative, in order to hide their own deep self doubt that maybe, they themselves could have or should have done or said something to change the present circumstances.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>No one is to blame.? This is not murder or an accident.? This is suicide, the end result of mental illness.? Whether the illness was long-term or short-term, at the time of suicide, a thought disorder was present.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>Why are we so afraid to accept that a loved one just wasn¡¯t thinking straight at the time of suicide?? Their thought pattern is muddled ¨C will I, <st1:place w:st="on"><st2:Sn w:st="on">won¡¯t</st2:Sn> <st2:Sn w:st="on">I.</st2:Sn></st1:place>?? Their final decision is just that ¨C final.? Even if you had the chance to give them a million reasons why they shouldn¡¯t, their thought process wouldn¡¯t accept what you had to say.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: column;mso-element-left:right;mso-element-top:middle;mso-height-rule:exactly'><strong><span style='font-family:Arial;color:#FFFFCC'>By not blaming others, you also take away that hidden underlying guilt and blame from yourself</span></strong><span style='color:#FFFFCC'>.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=style48 style='mso-element:frame;mso-element-frame-hspace:2.25pt; mso-element-wrap:around;mso-element-anchor-vertical:paragraph;mso-element-anchor-horizontal: